After Death Communications - My Personal Experiences

It was at the end of 79 and the beginning of 80 that the Juliet of my life walked in and introduced herself to the Romeo hidden inside of me.

I was a teenager and the expectation of the world was to find the one you could share your heart with for the sake of the world. I had 'best friends' in the past and we had wondered about the romantic edge ahead of us. It hit me like a ton of bricks.

It was instantaneous spontaneous combustion. The world stopped on me for a brief second and I felt my spirit depart this world and it did a dance in the world beyond. I felt myself flying around the world about 10 times before taking a trip to the 'divine realm' of light and love. I swore I saw her spirit passing me by on each of the loops around the planet. It all happened in the blink of an eye and when I caught my breath again - I was totally confused. It was the first time a girl had made me lose my breath.

The moment she spoke to me - I heard her inner heart speak simultaneously silently within. I just thought I had practice at 'silent' language. I felt all my 'testing' in the past was in preparation for meeting this girl. It was a hard process to get the messages inwardly from my guy friends in the past. With her - every time she spoke - I heard her 'inner voice' speaking to me.

I wanted to know if she knew what was going on. It was a boy meet girl thing so there was the awkward transformation taking place.

With my friends (at a young age) it was taboo to say that the 'special bond' between us contained an element of love. Guys just don't fell comfortable putting that four letter word between them. We always got around it by saying it was 'God's Love' placed between is. That was okay in our minds.

With my friends - I felt I had to teach them how to have the 'inner telepathic' conversations. With her - it just came naturally. On a scale of 1 to 10 - she knocked my friends down to a level 5 while she took over the number one spot of 10. I felt it was massive and I was looking to talk about the 'love' between us. She was in no hurry to rush the feelings between us.

I spent four months getting to know her and then the unthinkable happened.

She was shot and murdered by a crazed gunman.

I felt I had touched on the reality of death in my own 'near death experience.' The memory of it was vague as the months and years passed. I felt I was still in communication (from time to time) with two friends who had passed away. I had no memory of my reaction to their loss due to my amnesia.

I didn't think anything in this world could have prepared me for the boulder I felt was dropped on my head. I came to a whole new understanding of the grief and loss death can cause a living human mind and body.

In hindsight - I feel I was lucky and blessed. Within moments of the news that she had been shot and killed - I was having a vivid - face to face ADC with her spirit. It helped ease the pain for awhile but the hurt, anger and emotions of her death lingered for many months to come and had a huge impact on my life.