Reincarnation: Bearing Witness

Understanding Blindness

I told someone about the parable I was facing and he shared some ancient quote or wisdom with me similar to:

"When a blind man and one who sees are both together in darkness, they are no different from one another. When the light comes, then he who sees will see the light, and he who is blind will remain in darkness."  Gospel of Philip #60

I was constantly catching sight of 'spirits' that were as vivid and real to my sight and if I was standing next to another human being and they couldn't see it as I was seeing it - then I realized that there was a different type of 'sight and sound' vibrating through me.   It took me a while to learn that when this 'spiritual light' struck like a lightening bold before my own 'eye's' - that not everyone I stood next to was going to have their 'blindness' lifted during those temporary moments.   So - I found myself trying to describe what I had sight of to people who were handicapped with their own blindness.  

The blindness I found myself walking with after my 'near death experience' - and the blindness of others I walked beside was more of mystery to me than anything else.  

Insights from different angles kept coming to me though the days, weeks, months and years to come.  Like cycles of weather where it would rain down from heaven some days - and be hot and dry on other days.   Much like the weather, it was unpredictable. 

The most I felt I could do at times was to 'bear witness' to what I felt I had sight of with the 'mystical visions' given to me about reincarnation and if the person standing next to me had a mind to bear that sort of testimony then we would find companionship in awe of the mystery and learn from one another for the sake of the burden and weight of blindness we each walked with in the moment. 

My own doubts came and went.   Of course, from the human point of view - over and over again I was told there were 'deceiving spirits' out to turn our minds from the true reality to a 'false' reality and when it came to the theme and subject of reincarnation - people always fell back on this theory.   That these invisible and silent spirits were trying to turn me away from 'God's written word' and authority on the matter. 

I always found it curious and amazing how many people claimed they knew God - so much so- that in my mind it seemed as if they knew God better than God knew himself. 

I came across a curious word in my young adult life and tried to avoid it like the plague.  I didn't like hearing other fall into it and I didn't want to fall into it for myself. 

Proselytizing is the act of attempting to convert people to another opinion and, particularly, another religion. Though the word proselytism originally referred to Early Christianity (and earlier Gentiles), it also refers to other religions' attempts to convert people to their beliefs or even any attempt to convert people to another point of view, religious or not. Today, the connotations of proselytizing are often negative and the word is commonly used to describe attempts to force people to convert.

The keyword for me was 'opinion.'  I had my opinion on the matter and my opinion was fashioned and formed by my experiences with spirit when it came to spiritual matters.  I was working on trying to understand what 'truth' spirit was given me to know.  If 'spirit' was coming at other people from a different angle - then their opinion would be varied from my own.   I had no desire to convert people to my opinion by forcing my views or beliefs on anyone else. I saw this going on so much and had received a number of headaches from it - that I decided to claim myself an atheist.  Not because I didn't have profound belief and faith in a spirit beyond my own understanding.  It was the opposite.  I didn't want to fall into the belief that I could read a book and know everything there was about a 'book God' and turn my back and mind on a Spiritual Creator whose existence to me was in spirit.   For these reason, I became opposed to religion.   Mainly because I found myself in a culture and society that was trying to teach, preach and advocate 'non-reincarnation' as a fact, rule and truth.    This went against everything 'spirit' had shown me in the year and half after my 'near death experience.'  I had a choice to either turn my back on spirit and follow the herd mentality of religion - or turn my back on religion.  

My experience with 'religious minds' was such that it was the 'blind leading blind' and they didn't care if the stomped all over the 'truth' in the process.  

I just stated a prayer for God to lead me to my own understanding if he needed me to stand in place and bear witness to the sights and sounds I had seen - then I would.  Otherwise, I was going to keep my mouth shut and not call attention to myself from the herd mentality of religion and suffer their wrath for my beliefs.   My standard prayer after 1979 was for God's spirit to led me to those who needed to know me as much as I needed to know them.   It was simple in it's wording but vast in it's depth and reach.  A part and parcel of the package was in asking God to introduce me to others who walked with a belief that I walked with and was open minded to the subject, theme and truth behind reincarnation.   I didn't want to force my opinion and views on other people who had no mind to understand it from the depth of their own inner heart and souls.