Themes in Visions

After 1978 NDE

I found opposition to a great deal of my personal testimony about the fact that I could recall being a spirit outside my physical body and the trip to the light that my spirit had gone on. 

The first memory that returned to my mind at the age of 18 was events that took place 2 days after my physical birth 18 years prior. I was able to describe in vivid detail the scenes my mind and eyes had witnessed at 2 days old.   I repeated the conversation I had heard between my Mom and Dad when they put my infant body into a bed. 

My Mom said that there was no way I could comprehend human language at 2 days old.  I told her I didn't think I had comprehension of what was being said when it was said 18 years prior.  I had a memory and I was able to interpret it from the current mind of understanding 18 years later.

There was an 'inner feeling' that was akin to instinct or intuition.  I didn't have 'thoughts' in human language but I had 'understanding' that I was also interpretation.   A part of me knew that I was going to sleep into the physical body.  A part of me knew that I had been in a 'realm of life' prior to being placed within the physical body.  And, I knew that I had previous experiences in the past with both the 'man' and 'woman' who were standing before me.   It was like 'well of memories' attached to a previous life and a previous mind.   That part of the 'understanding' was hidden by a veil of fog.  I called it a 'foggy memory' where it would come and go but when it came - there wasn't a doubt in my mind that we all had a previous relationship in a different time, a different place and with different minds. 

When I compared it to the 'light realm' trip that I took in the 'near death experience,' this information seemed to line up with what I had been shown there. 

In the weeks, months and years to come - these 'foggy memories' would evaporate and disappear from my view.  I wouldn't be able to call them to mind directly.  I could recall speaking about it to my Mom or my Dad.  I thought it was odd that I could recall the conversations about the subject, but the 'direct' memory I had of it that first day would hid itself from me.   

There were many theories passed around due to my amnesia.   Some felt it was a product of an over active imagination in childhood getting mixed up in my mind and coming back as a 'reality' when it was only a fictional memory.  

I grew tired of having to combat the doubts of other people and became very selective who, when and where I would discuss the 'foggy spiritual memories.'  

I would have 'visions' come to me in the night and when I first woke up - there would be no doubt that I had touched upon some former memory associated with my soul, heart and spirit in the past.  

I spoke with one person and their response was,

"That is one of God's mysteries.  I wouldn't look for human's to help you with some thing only God's hand and can provide." 

I kept many of my questions limited to my prayers afterwards.  The theme was so fantastic and overwhelming at times, I couldn't help but make observations through my testimony of what kept coming to me through 'mysterious revelations.'