1996 Awakening

In 1996, I stumbled upon a copy the three Gospels translated by Thomas Paterson Brown.  What caught my attention was the use of the name "Yeshua."  This triggered latent and dormant memories of my childhood.  I had spent the bulk of my childhood making a reference to this ancient Aramaic name. 

Yeshua, Issa, Isha and Jesus

I had also used this reference in the early 80's when talking to friends.  I had visions relating to my near death experience that had something to do with a man I knew of  with a name akin to "Yeshua."  I wasn't used to seeing it written down.  I was used to hearing it spoken within the visions relating to my near death experiences.  I had found a reference to "Issa" in 1983 and it stunned me.  It was the first time I felt there might be a connection between who the world called "Jesus" and who I knew of in my visions as "Yeshua."  

Kundalini

I have never had a religious mindset toward any religion.  I was one of those people  who felt I was spiritual without the use of religion.   So - I had no idea what happened to me on a conscious level when I felt an explosion inside of me that unlocked energy at the base of my spine. It happened at night while I was asleep in what felt like a dream.  A very lucid and real dream.   A spirit showed up and asked if I was ready that I might keep my promises.  I had no idea what this spirit was talking about when a voice inside of me shouted out 'YES!"  Then it happened.  It felt like I had a compressed zip file inside of me and it started uncompressing.   That is when the 'hidden memories' of my childhood started returning to the surface.   All the near death experiences and the knowledge gained from them - had been hidden away. I had to research information before I found literature on the theories associated with the Kundalini before I had a conscious understanding of what took place that night in my sleeping dream. 

I had many 'near death experiences' in childhood.  The experiences themselves didn't grant me access to the 'hidden knowledge' and the mysteries associated with them.  It was only after years of doing spiritual work on the side that triggered that 'awakening' within.  It wasn't something done on a conscious level as much as a subconscious level.