Angelic Messenger
In 1969, I had a long visit with a messenger of light. One of the spirits from my earlier near death experiences in childhood showed up and shared a long conversation with me.
Lady in White
When I was a child, I referred to this mysterious 'woman' as the "lady in white." As a child, I couldn't tell the difference between the living flesh and the living spirit. Everyone had a persona to me and when personality presented itself with an intelligence - I felt they were people. In hindsight, I can see the stark differences between the flesh and blood human being and the encounters I had with spiritual beings. The 'spiritual' beings were transparent. They were like projections within that radiated outward in an way to to reference their identity to me. The reason no one else around me to could see them as I could see them - was because it was through the 'eye of the soul' or what some refer to as the inner eye' or 'third eye.'
1969
It was during the summer months that I had a long visit outside of a 'near death experience' episode. My mind was caught up in the reality of the physical and my "NDE's" were hidden and buried in my subconscious. I was only nine years old and as all children, my focus was on the moment. When this 'messenger' showed up - I had no conscious memory of my spiritual association in the past. "She" reminded me of the many times she had visited me in the past and I laughed at myself for forgetting her as I had done. "She" was always with me in all the 'near death experiences' when I stepped out onto the other side. I was troubled by this very fact. I kept forgetting the 'knowing' of home as I struggled to grow up in the 'world of man.'
When I asked for a 'worldly' reference to her association to me - she told me,
"In the world you now live, I am what some might call an 'angel.' I bring you messages on behalf of the one you call your Real Father."
We started speaking after breakfast and we ended our conversation just before sunset. During this time there were different types of languages used. One was the one I referred to as the 'inner' tongue. That was a spiritual tone associated with the language of the 'spirit realm.' I wanted her to speak to me in the outer tongue so I would have a rational and logical memory of our conversation. She said that the conversation would be given to me but that it would be hidden away until I became an adult. I didn't recall our conversation until 1996.
The conversation had been about many subject and one of the focal points was a reference to the 'books' of texts that contained written references to the conversation we had shared that day. When I found the three lost gospels on the Internet in 1996 - I had found the books an 'angel' had referenced to me back in 1969 long before they were translated into English. The three gospels she spoke about that day were the Gospels of Thomas, Philip and Truth.
When I started reading the text in 1996, I couldn't make sense of the writings. I was never very religious so it took a while to wrap my mind around the context. It was only after I started recalling the angelical conversation back in 1969 that the text started making sense. The 'angelical' messenger had used parables to illustrate the meaning behind the themes involved in the texts.
This was on the the rare occasions in my life where the conversation was recorded with the use of my human mind as opposed to the 'spiritual mind' that is utilized during the near death experiences.